it takes a village

I was at lunch telling a friend about what was new with the boys and telling that how grateful I was to our awesome daycare lady and how she is working so hard with Ryan with potty training. And then in the next breath I said that my amazing neighbor found Jack his Halloween costume, I just haven’t made the effort to go out and she came across it and it worked out great. And then i said it really takes a village. 
And even though I knew how true this statement was, IT IS TRUE!  It takes a freaking village!  And it’s a good thing!  I’m so damn lucky to have a village of willing participants to help with the kids. People that not only help but lovingly help and really enjoy spending time with them. 
No parents can do it all alone and you will kill yourself trying to get everything done and be everything to your kids that they need. And isn’t it wonderful that they have all of these people in their lives that provide all kinds of different learning’s and different ways to teach?
If I did the whole feeling emoji thing on facebook (and I don’t), I would be feeling grateful with a smiley face with heart eyes because I am so grateful for all of the people that love our boys and enrich them in ways that we can’t. I know that I have guilt when I’m not with the kids. I feel like working full time, the time I do get with them is precious. But, I am also fully aware that taking time to do things for me makes me a better mom.
I just thought it might be a good reminder to anyone who needed it today, because even thought I knew it, it was a good thing to re-learn today at lunch.
photo credit


race day

it never gets old
some people ask me what i'm running for, like for what cause
and then sometimes i feel like a jerk, because its for me
its the energy, a pure runners high
not that im not for running for a cause, but
there is nothing like a crowd on race day to make you want to run every freaking day of your life
the cowbells, the signs, the kids reaching to high five you....
it's the glory lap of all of you training

this weekend was no different
it was the Akron Marathon
i was part of a 5 person team that together did a full marathon!  i have done the relay twice before but this year i was able to do the last leg and it was my favorite. we were running along the same route as the full marathoners! it was insane!!!  these people are so motivating!  i started when these people were at the 20.5 mile, it blew my mind! and it makes me want to do it too! (maybe)
i finished the race up in the stadium and it was nothing short of amazing :)

my parents were there waiting with Ryan and a big sign and i got to do my leg with my good friend.
Ryan and the cute sign even made it in a story online!

it wasn't my best time, but it was probably the most fun i have ever had and im counting the days until my next race and ill see you next year Akron!
finish line selfie
my biggest fans!
we are done!
me and my best running bud!!!


Sleepy Heads

I have fallen hard off the blog wagon this year with this as my whopping second post of the year.... but, its a good one.

I couldn't help myself when I saw Katie start the Bower Power Picture Party. I love taking pictures, mostly of the boys and someday dream of owning a nicer camera to work on my craft. But, until then I have my trusty old point and shoot and it usually does this trick. This is one of my favorites and we used it on our Christmas card this year. After 2 rounds of Christmas Card attempts with no luck, I decided to throw some twinkle lights on the bed and put the boys all snuggled up together. Its a little dark, but it's still one of my favorites of them together.

 Now, if only they would always look this peaceful!
Can't wait to see what Katie's theme is next month!


Happy birthday Jack!

Tomorrow Jack is one! I have been meaning to write about his actual birth day for about a year now also. I just don’t want to forget all of the details of one of the best days in my life. I feel like Sophia from the Golden Girls now, but here it is…..

Picture it, Newton Falls, March 17th 2013. At about 7 in the morning my mom and dad came over to spend the day with Ryan. I was supposed to check in at the hospital at 8 to be induced.  I was really crossing my fingers that it would work and Jack would officially be a St Paddy’s day boy!

From the moment I knew my due date, I was really hoping that I would have a St Paddy’s day baby! It’s always been a very fun and special holiday for my family so I knew it would be extra fun to have him then!  And who wouldn't want that as a birthday? So, my awesome Dr agreed to induce me. I was really hoping Jack would be on board with being born on time since my actual due date was not until the 20th.

We made it to the hospital and up to our room by 8 and discovered that I was in the exact same room that I had Ryan- Room #6. Also, interesting to note that 6 has always been my luck number (birth date 6/6). I was feeling lucky, so I was hoping that Jack would be too. I was a little hesitant to pick an induction date because I felt like I was tempting fate, but it was really handy to have it planned so I wasn't going into labor in the middle of the night and needing to have someone come over to be with Ryan at 3 in the morning!

My nurse Gayle was the best!  She helped me thru step by step and we had a good morning with not too much action. When I arrived I think I was maybe 2cm. I knew I had a long way to go. And based on my history with Ryan, I knew it could be a very long wait until Jack made his grand appearance. I was also VERY concerned that Jack was going to be larger than Ryan. Ry was a whopping 9lb 11oz and it took for-ev-er to come out!  My Dr assured me that Jack was smaller, but I was still a little leery.

By about noon there was still not too much happening so Dr D came in and broke my water, hoping that would get things moving along. I now had 12 hours to get Jack out. I had some visitors stopping in to check on me. Mom and dad had dropped off Ry at Thad's moms house so they were there.  Thad’s best friend Jonathan was there most of the day too, he has spent the entire day that Ryan was born with us too at the hospital and wanted to be there again. My bestie Missy stopped in for a little bit too. I also got a visit from a real leprechaun!  I was having decent contractions and I told Gayle that I was ready for some pain meds. So, sometime during the time that Missy was there, I was given Nubain for the pain and things started to get a little fuzzy. The best description I could say was that I was feeling buzzed, It was hard to focus on conversation and I was feeling super sleepy and everything was pretty hilarious. About an hour later, I was given the epidural and I was only 4cm. I wasn't sure at this point if Jack was going to arrive by midnight. It was already close to 5pm, and it wasn't looking good.

An hour later the nurse came in and asked me if I felt any pressure or the urge to push, and I said that now that she mentioned it, I did. She said I was at 10 cm already and they were calling the Dr in. I was there and so so excited to get this show on the road. Thad has just stepped out of the building so it sent everyone in a little tizzy to find him. They turned on those incredibly bright overhead lights that I totally forgot about until that moment and things were getting going. Thad walked in with Dr D and we were mentally preparing ourselves for awhile of pushing, since it took 4 hours with Ryan. 

The nurse said I could start pushing and it took 3 whole pushes and at 6:07pm our family grew by one sweet Jack! We were all so shocked how quickly he arrived and I was surprised at how tiny he seemed. He was only 7lbs and 4oz. So teeny tiny compared to what I was prepared for!  He cried right away and then as soon as they handed him to me he calmed right down.  That moment was very telling of his temperament. This whole first year he has been a very calm little guy for the most part. He has his crazy moments but he is so sweet and we couldn't imagine our family without him.

It’s hard to believe that it’s been a whole year since he came into our lives and I’m feeling quite nostalgic. But, I’m also so excited to see what this year has in store for us and to see the boys start to become better friends.

Happy First Birthday to our sweet Jack Sullivan! We love you more every single day!  


some fun on a Sunday night

Some Sunday randoms for you to enjoy, or to not enjoy. 
I have no fun "model shots" of myself like the girl i copied this from. So, too bad. Check my instagram feed if you want to see what i look like ;)

Making: no sense, a million holiday related things, cleaning house things, or you know showering right now. But this seems like way more fun. 
Cooking : nothing at all...
Drinking : ice water, you know to balance out all the crap i have eaten in the last 5 days. 
Reading : my bloglovin feed- hence this post.
Wanting : to have all the Christmas related tasks done already. 
Looking: at the new TV in our living room- Thanks Zach and Sarah!  :)
Playing: dumb and not wanting to admit that i really still dont have the Christmas card photo after two photo shoot attempts. 
Wasting: my free time on this blog post. Gotta stay relevant- happy December post 5 people who actually read this blog ;)
Sewing: nothing- maybe next year?
Wishing: that my lunch for tomorrow was already packed and sitting happily int he fridge. 
Enjoying: a DVRd episode of the Voice. 
Waiting: for the kitties to leave the me alone. 
Liking: leggings?!?!  never in a zillion years did i think that sentace would come out of my moth. 
Wondering: what the new year will bring.
Loving: my time with the boys- they are so sweet and i know that 10 years will go by in a blink and they won't want to hang with their mom anymore. 
Hoping: that i can be on time to work tomorrow.  
Marveling: at how we already got a Christmas card in the mail this weekend- what?!?!
Needing: more sleep- always, always :)
Smelling: the cheese nips Thad is munching on. 
Wearing: jeans and a sweatshirt, too lazy to change just yet. 
Following: some new blogs that make me wish i had more time to write on mine. 
Noticing: that everyone in the world on fb and ig has thier tree up already when ours is still in the corner of the basement, covered in dust and possibly cat fur, untouched since last January. 
Knowing: that next weekend, i will be able to tackle the Christmas decorating. 
Thinking: about how tomorrow is cyber Monday and i have no shopping plans, still. 
Feeling: lucky- still not sure who let me have kids, but they are the best. Now is the time, they are so much fun, even when they are driving me nuts. 
Bookmarking: some possible Christmas gift ideas. 
Opening: the fridge, way too much lately. 
Giggling: at the holiday inflatables that people put in their yard. I never say never, but i have a strong hatred for them.
Feeling: excited that they kids have been in bed for a whole hour already and i have time to do some fun things. (like this awesome post).

Go ahead- copy this and tell me what you are up to like i did to Grace. Or don't, and laugh at me for wearing leggings.