a strange anniversary

today i realized while talking to a friend that it had been 6 months exactly

its not a day that i had on the calendar

its not a date that i even care to remember

but, it crept into my head and i was almost surprised by where i was

 

today is 6 months since my life was changed

when i went to bed on June 15th, i didn't know how i would make it a week on my own

i remember leaving all the lights on in the basement and thru the house because i was scared

scared to be alone, scared of the choice that we had made and scared for my future

i called my cousin much to late at night, luckily she picked up (thanks Anne) and she listened to me talk and cry and tell her what i was scared to tell the world

then i remember hitting a week 

and then a month 

and then a new season- I was never more ready for fall to arrive

and then i opened up on the honest mom blog and received so much positive feedback that i took a deep breath and kept going

and here we are 6 months into it, and i'm still here

and i'm so grateful for all of my friends and family that have "picked up" 

picked up to call, to send a text or a card, or to go on a run or share a beer

it has been a life changing 6 months to say the least but we are still doing ok

the boys are good and crazy as ever

 

2015 is going to be bright 

and though i'm not totally sure what it has in store, i know its going to be good!