The past few weeks have been a struggle. There is a lot going on this month and April looks to be just as busy and on top of that we are moving. I have spent many hours freaking out in my head silently about how in the world an I going to accomplish this along with getting in all of my training miles? The short answer is that I simply am not. Something has to give and I need to start taking my own advice more and “reel it in”. I say this to the boys all the time to get them to settle down about whatever they are climbing on, screaming about, or wrestling each other to the ground.
I have been having these thoughts about not doing the whole 26.2, but I kept shoving them aside because it’s not like me to just give up the dream of something. And I hate letting myself down. As soon as I finished the marathon last year, I was game for more! And I know I’ll complete another one again soon, but right now, there is just too much LIFE. Last year, the days I didn’t have the boys, I ran. It was easy. I had a day each weekend and I ran and trained and then was nice and fresh for them when they came home but this year is different. I have them every other weekend and I’m fine with them hanging with nana and papa for an hour or two, but to leave them to run for 4 or more hours just seems selfish and not something that I really want to give up at the moment. I want them to be proud of what I accomplish and show them that finishing something that I start is important, but not at the expense of time with them. They are only little once and soon I won’t be cool enough for them to want me around all the time. And when they cry when I leave to run it breaks my heart and I want to just be playing with them.
I’m surely not giving up running all together, but reeling it in and setting my sights on a half marathon PR and the 8k challenge series seems like the right thing for me to do. I know that no one is going to love me less but I really really hate admitting that I have to scale it back. So, with that weight off my chest, I’m excited to have a little scaled back training ahead of me and get us moved in all before the big race day! I also signed up for the Pittsburgh Half with my training buddy Lynanne two weeks before Cleveland, so im looking forward to a good practice race ahead of time. Those hills in the burgh are no joke!
The last two weeks were a little touch and go.
Monday- core class and 1 mile on lunch break
Tuesday- 3 miles at lunch
Wenesday- 3 miles at lunch
Thursday- St pats day and Jack turned 3! So no miles and lots of fun with the boys! We all took the day to celebrate and play!
Saturday- 11 miles
Sunday- 7 miles. And this was the best run I have had in a long time. Everything just clicked!
Wenesday- 3 miles at lunch
Friday- 2 miles and then rough knee pain
Saturday- 6.5 miles and the decision to stick to the half this year
Sunday- Easter and a house full of people left me no time to run in the beautiful weather
It's been not the best few weeks training wise. But, it's real life. My training bestie is no longer working with me so lunch time runs are a little more boring. I did however finally get a new training watch! OMG, so excited and can't wait to fully get used to it to track miles and pace.
I'm looking forward to this race so much and I know it will still be just as special to me!
Have you guys had to reel it in?
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You are playing it smart. Dial it back, and you will have the incentive to keep running, even when things get rough. To push through too much, especially when your kids are so little, is only going to make you resent running--not good. I think you made a great decision, and you are going to rock the series!
ReplyDeleteThanks girl! I hope I will always continue to run as long as I'm able and hopefully someday with my boys! Maybe we can have a beer this year!
DeleteBummer! Sorry to hear that things aren't going as planned. But I think you made the right decision and it sounds like you feel good about that now. Thanks for being so open and read all about your training and running. It's great for this mom-to-be to see what real life is like. Now you can join me at the finish line and cheer on the rest of the marathon runners!
ReplyDeleteYes!!! Let's plan on it!!! Can't wait to see them cross that line!
DeleteGood for you! I know that's a huge weight lifted! I recently did something similar- was supposed to run the towpath half on April 10 but I'm just not ready. I was dreading it and that wasn't how I wanted to go into a race. I changed my registration to the 5-miler and feel sooo much better! We'll be ready for Cleveland!! Xoxo hang in there girl! You are so inspiring!
ReplyDeleteYes. Being true to your self is way harder than it seems some times. Glad you figured out what you need to do! Yay CLE!! Thank you for your kind words!!! 😉
DeleteI had to do this same exact thing last year! Good for you! You realized your life priorities and let's face it a HALF marathon is still a HUGE accomplishment. I hope with you doing the half means I can see your pretty face at the finish line, when I am about dead crossing after 26.2 ;)
ReplyDeleteSeriously, good for you! Life happens and you know what that's OK!
-Jamie Johnston
You know I'll be there screaming for you!!! Thanks for all the love and support! It means the world!
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